Monthly Archives: January 2017


When we go to the Sonic in town we always drive to the cemetery and eat the ice cream. Well we rarely go to Sonic anymore so we haven’t been to the cemetery in a while. It shows by the overgrowth of grass around Timothy’s marker, Daniel doesn’t have a marker yet. Just can’t seem to do it. I feel like I have grieved and that will just rip the scab off of my healed up heart and i am not sure that I can handle that.

Anyways yesterday I smelled something, not sure exactly what or even why it brought me back but I just stood there. It brought me right back to my bathtub, being pregnant with Timothy. I would lay in the bath feeling sick and horrible and he would just start to roll and kick. I just pictured his little feet in there just dancing away. It took all the yuckies away getting to feel that.

When I stand right here in this spot I feel close to them. I know they aren’t right there but I saw their precious tiny body get lowered into the ground right here so right here is where I feel them. Its where I force myself to be still, slow down, and just be still. Some moments I miss those what would have been things.



2017 Goals 

My goals for the new year. Most important at the bottom. Make your goals known. When people know about them they can ask and hold you accountable. You will be more likely to accomplish them. 

Mine are simple. They are just a little push more. But it just something small to strive for. I love it. Always pushing a little harder to learn something new or do something different 

Gratitude Simple Things

I am so thankful that I find joy is easy living. Simple things. A bowl of chili and a beer make my heart sing.

Sitting at home with my family on New Years Eve watching tv, joy joy joy ❤

I don’t need fancy things. I don’t need to go fancy things. I have great joy in these little things and I’m dedicating this new year to being even more grateful!